The marks are in, and I'm still breathing.

Okay, okay, I got my Psych mark back today. I have been checking on a fairly regular basis, mostly out of concern for my gpa. For the record, my gpa is just fine. KPE and Engl150 brought it up quite a bit and Psych did bring it down, though not enough to make me wish I'd audited. I'm sitting at a safe .01 above where I need to be. Let's just hope it stays there, for the sake of the program I'm trying to enter. In other news, I think I'm dropping one of the courses I've signed up for for the upcoming fall semester. It's a Canadian history course and it really does nothing to help me towards my degree. At this time it's simply an extra expense I don't need. The rough part of that is, I realised this a bit too late for a full refund (darn!). I now have to pay 10% of the course fee. I think. Still, 30$ is a more friendly price to pay than $300! As of right this second, I am still enrolled in said history course. I think I will end this post and go withdraw before I change my mind again. With the onslaught of September, I find my reasoning becomes a bit shakier and my desire to think of school and school-related activities reaches an all-time low. I wonder what the explanation could be... TTFN, FGLH :P

Yay! and Boo!

Ok, yet another mixed post... I know, I know, I'm sick of them too. First the "Yay" bit. I'M FINISHED SUMMER SEMESTER!!! I had my last exam a week ago tomorrow. I even have one of my marks back already! I wound up getting a miraculous A in KPE, for which I am extremely thankful. I still don't know my Psych mark, nor do I honestly care that much about it as long as it doesn't make my GPA plummet :s I'm really just thankful to be done... That leaves me with some actual free time ( :O :O :O ) before school returns. I have already had one day without school or work and I did enjoy it immensely! Unfortunately, with summer semester ending so late, my little piece of vacation feels quite overshadowed by the impending doom that is September. The worst part about this is that I remember last September. Last September sucked. A lot. This one looks to be just about as bad, minus one perk that will keep me smiling for quite some time: Adrian's staying! I might even get to be in a class with him :D That would be nice, but even if it doesn't happen, I'm so happy that he's staying local and we can keep working together ;) So, basically the gist of this post is: Good news - School is over! Bad news - School is almost here! Ironic, I suppose. Sigh, isn't that how life is sometimes? In the meantime, I'm gonna soak up the sun and bask in the company of the friends who are here now. I'll think about their departure another time, when I feel less inclined to cry about it. :)

Ick...

This week is mixed. The beginning was really nice, with Agrifair and Chris Janz and Swing Dancing on Sunday and then Bethany's party yesterday. Unfortunately, it's been going downhill fairly quickly. I have an exam tomorrow and another one on Thursday and I'm not prepared for either. I'm studying today and I will be again tomorrow for the next one, but in the meantime it's a pile of stress that I don't need. I'm also feeling really confused about other aspects of my life right now. I've had a lot of advice thrown at me in the past few days, but none of it seems terribly helpful. The one person I do want to talk to, the one who usually calms me down in the face of this stuff, is the one person I can't talk to right now. It really sucks. I'm tired and stressed and lonely and it's completely my fault. Or at least that's how it feels. It is too bad that growth is often accompanied by growing pains. I need to focus. I need to think clearly. I need to re-evaluate priorities and expectations and all of that good stuff. I'm pretty sure I'm drained. If I am correct (which is likely in this case), I believe that's what's making life so difficult right now. For those of you who know Switchfoot, I keep coming back to "Let that be enough". I keep trying to do all of these tasks, impress all of these people, succeed in all of my schoolwork, work whenever my bosses need me... but it never seems to be enough. Somehow I manage to fall short each time. It leaves me wondering about my worth and my place here. When can I get my happiness back? It's been gone for a while and I really miss it. I've got this fake version that works for satisfying curious people from time to time, but it's not nearly as comfortable as my normal kind. I guess this isn't a terribly happy post... I just don't have very much of that emotion to spare at the moment. Back to the books now, it's time to cram into my brain all of the things I'll never remember anyway.