Central Heights has dropped its young adults ministry. That means no more Sunday School. That means sitting in coffee connections for an hour or so wasting time and straining to hear the conversations going on around me. I was afraid this would happen. I've been contemplating different things. I thought maybe it wouldn't matter so much to not have Sunday School at first because I thought I could still go to InsideOut, but I can't because I work on Mondays. Then I thought of switching churches, just for Sunday - meaning still going to Lifeline on Wednesdays and stuff. That idea is both appealing and unappealing. I would like to go somewhere where I will learn. Today, I feel like I would have accomplished more by staying home and doing nothing. It sucks. I didn't go to service today either, because we were in JAM. I don't know how much longer I want to be in JAM either... I just feel like I'm not growing at this church anymore and it really scares me. I want to learn and I want to grow. I wish I could go to a school where it was part of the curriculum or something, anything really. The reasons I don't want to leave CHC are significant. My friends are there. It's safe. It's comfortable. My little brother likes it there and he is learning and growing. I love the Lifeline ministry I am involved in. For right now, I'm in limbo. I don't where to go or what to do. I'm going to pray about it and see what happens from there. I just feel really trapped, and church isn't about imprisoning people, it's supposed to be about helping them find freedom.
On another, equally disappointing note, my dad quit his job on Friday. That leaves both of my parents unemployed and completely stressed out. The job was really not that great for him. It started out seeming alright, but then he was having to work 4-5 hours of overtime *every* day. It also included a lot of physical labour that was too much for his body to handle. He's been having back and leg problems since he started. My mom was mad about it from the start 'cause it never seemed to be getting better and the company had broken all of its promises. On top of that, my great uncle passed away the night that he quit. My dad's mom called the next morning to let him know. I think it's really hit him hard. My mom has been crying constantly for the past few days.
That's about all. I'm too upset to add anything else right now.
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If you're already feeling upset, then I probably shouldn't mention the apostrophe error five words in. :P
When I was there last week, Cam said he was still trying to find someone to man Sunday School. I hope he didn't give up.
There's always the idea of trying to start a study session yourself before service starts - I'm sure you're not the only post-secondary student that wants to grow.
I can't really say much about the latter situation except maybe to see what the WCB thinks about it. If a company goes back on its promise when they hired him, that gives him a reason to complain. That and I'll be praying about it.
Oh, yeah, when I went to church today, I didn't feel quite like slipping quietly in the back, so I took a familiar spot - right side, third row. Thought you might like that. :)
Hang in there. I am hoping that Cam hasn't given up on finding a teacher for us, too, but even if he can't find anyone, that doesn't me we have to stop growing. It's too bad that you can't make Inside Out on Monday nights. Do you want to try starting our own Bible study another night. We could invite Kelly or Kristi or Jewel or Bethany or anyone else you can think of or even do it just the two of us. Keep on praying and keep me posted with what you decide. If you want to try a new church, I'll come with you :). I'm glad Chris is liking it there. Has he made good friends? Would it be hard for him to change?
That sucks that your dad's job didn't work out. Can he go back to his old one or is he on the job hunt again? How's your mom doing at finding a job? I will definitely be praying for your family.
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